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I dont know if you will happen to drop by my blog and read about this. Lets see when fate allows you to read. This is for you. To you, Is been a tough eleven months for you. All the happy things and unhappy things are all in this eleven months. We see couples getting together and also see how couples break up. We promise not to let this happen. We wanted to spend our lives together. We have our up and down but when we are down, I still want to spend my life with you and I proud to have you. Now, we are facing the same old problems. I do tend to talk to people online but those are just talking. you might not trust me anymore. there's no one to blame but only myself. Seeing you like this really hurts me. I ask you this, do you think you'll be happier this way? I told you I'll stop doing all these but you wont believe. If the answer to the question to you is yes, I'll let you go. You have your own problems in work.
I rather be the one going through all these. I cant sleep in the night, but at least I have sleeping pills. I rather I see you happy without then seeing you sad being with me. Past two weeks after that incident, I told myself I have to stop all these nonsense that I have giving you. I wanted to treat you like how I treated you in our first three months. Giving you surprises and seeing you happy. That's what I feel and what I wanted. But you mistaken that I'm treating you nice because I done something wrong. Ever since two weeks back I told myself to love you more and to stop all the nonsense things i done before. I dont know when you are going to trust me but I'll try my best to let you trust me and be what we were in the first three months.
I wanted to travel with you. Remember our first destination? We want to go redang then to taiwan and then to goldcoast. I prove it to you that we can. I hope you can read this. Fate shall decides. Ps, I love you.
Garry. |